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Last weekend I had the opportunity to see a dear friend tie the knot with her best friend in La Jolla, CA. This marks one of many beautiful ceremonies I've had the privilege of attending over the last couple years. I am at the age where proposals, weddings, baby showers or gender reveal invitations hit my calendar with a frequency that would put any socialite to shame.

I remember a few months ago, the thought of going to weddings or anything bridal related made me so sad. I hated that I was not always genuinely happy for my friends. There was so much longing for this right of passage that I felt marriage afforded, it was making me into someone I disliked. Someone petulant.

It took a while to get out of this mental anguish but with the help of supportive parents, friends and of course trusted counselor I was able to see my life through the lenses of abundance instead of scarcity.. Instead of focusing on what I don't have, I focused on what I did. When I changed my mentality, I found out that I already have someone in my corner who is never going to let me down - me.

As Ariana Grande belts out in "thank u next,"

...I met someone else We havin' better discussions I know they say I move on too fast But this one gon' last 'Cause her name is (Clary) And I'm so good with that (so good with that)

I also found that I am blessed to have independent financial stability and a company that empowers growth in business and in spirit. I found that I have options in my life - the freedom to make big, bold choices as I see fit. There are moments when I still get thoughts like "when will my time come?" but when I feel it coming, I actually turn to myself and say to my ego "it's ok, I know this hurts, accept that it hurts, but it's not your time. God is working on something really special for you and right now your friend needs your love and support and I promise you, this will only make you stronger in the long run." Instead of going into "victim mode" I have started to see how magical it is to witness the start of so many adventures for my friends and family. I get to be a little piece of magical stardust that can bring them positive energies during their once-in-a-lifetime moments. Isn't that special?

This week in my reading of A Path Made Clear by Oprah Winfrey, I came across this passage:

"The poet, Daniel Ladinsky wrote,

Even after all this time, the sun never says to the earth, "You owe me."

Look what happens with a love like that. It lights up the whole sky.

That's how you do it. All you have to do is practice this divine love." - Wayne Dyer

This left me thinking: Imagine loving from the most vulnerable and unselfish parts of your soul. Free of the ego telling you that you are better than or more deserving of than others - which we know is a lie; we are above no one. It would give you the freedom to be loved for your most authentic, true and honest self in return. That's the kind of epic love worth waiting for.

Sunset Cliffs Natural Park, San Diego, CA